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[fierysue]

No prob.

Do I get to hear this idea? Cliche can be good sometimes, if done right.

Lol, sure... I'll type it out and post it here when I stop being so lazy... :P

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

Sue, do you like that idea I posted JUST before Pedro posted his re-write of his first chapter?

[fierysue]

*runs back several pages and reads what she missed*

YES!

Songfics = WIN! And when they're vignettes about the JN gang as they grow older (especially when J/C related) = AWESOME!

:D

[J/C AVA]

Songfics = WIN! And when they're vignettes about the JN gang as they grow older (especially when J/C related) = AWESOME!

What a coinscidence... :rolleyes:

LL&D is a J/C built, operatic, JN gang maturing songfic

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

Woah! :blink: :wacko: ^_^ :lol:

[J/C AVA]

Told ya it's gonna be EPIC!

Just keep this a secret

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

You GOT it!

[J/C AVA]

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:lol: :lol: :lol:

[J/C AVA]

I dunno...

I'm starting to have my doubts about Life, Love and Death. MAJOR doubts. :(

I don't think it'll be good enoguh. I dunno why. I want it to be good. I want it to succeed. I want it to be relivent and have lots of meaning for people, IDOJers especally. I want it to be...

...I dunno... perfect?

Never. :lol:

It's just... I dunno. The amount of work I have to put to make it great. The long hours, days, and years I have to put into it. The countless cuts, revisions, edits, etc.

The mind-numbing work!!! :grr: :'(

It's moments like these when I wonder how do the great authors, here and in general, survive such screwdriver work?

All I know is that screwdriver work I CANNOT survive. I never had.

My sentence syntaxes are shot, my word choices are so limited it's not even funny, and my writing... everything... so underdeveloped, so poor you cannot even begin to comprehend.

And I feel that no matter what advice anyone tells me, it's not going to change my mediocre writing.

It's like a book that begs you to finish it, but you refuse to read it cause you don't want to dell with the countless hours of long reading until your eyes are bloodshot.

They all tell me that only I can change my writing with practice and lots of patience.

Well, I tell you all now that if there was some magical way that I can touch and gain the infinite knowlege of universal literiture, I'd give it no 2nd thought!

Strange on how the only things I wish for are the things that don't exist, the things that are realistically impossible, and just plain unobtainable. It's like a baseball player who wants to just win so badly, so he takes steriods and ingores the vaule of "fair play" and "play for the love of the sport". He only wants power, fame, glory, and immortality. He could care less about honest, hard working effort. Heck it's those very people that only brings our fragile race closer to extinction and closer to death.

How ironic that I seem to be the same. Only a steroid for hungry, thirsty, and inspiration-deprived writers, like myself, doesn't exist.

Not that I would want one.. YUCK!!

Still, if even one, small, narrow shortcut to instantanious writing perfection even vaguelly exists, I'd take it in a heartbeat.

So yeah, I seem like a lying cheater when it comes to writing, yearning for the easy way of life to be my salvation, only to bring me more pain and emptiness. It's not fair that pain, suffering, and disapointment has to be the ones that makes us strong! I hate that! The deep extent of which I resent such a notion is so deep you would not even know.

My passion and yearning to be a great author is more than just an idea for me: it's my life! I want it to be my life. I want it to inspire people. I want to be a voice to those who have no voice. I want to be the voice of a bipolor depressed girl who longs for her family to regonize her and stop abusing her. I want to be the voice for the girl admin who while having a much better and superior writing voice than I'll ever have, has gone thorugh family pain to the extent of being fearful of failed marriges (of whom I don't blame for feeling so), a voice for the boy whose friends and family are torn apart and destroyed by the hatered and single-mindedness of religious extremeists and terrorists, a voice in the bitter old man whose life has been full of disappointment and bitterness that he's set his anger on the young sadly, a voice for those young victimized by the bitterness of the previous generation, a voice for all generations who seek to find peace and common love among each other rather than fight angrly to the extent of alienation and death, a voice for those who have nothing, a voice for the happy, sad, desolate, hopeful, strong, and humble, a voice for angels to send their loving hymn to a greveing people, saddend, hurt and angry, a voice for the little girl playing in her yard, unaware of the pain and sacrifices that her adult years will sadly bring, a teenage daughter who struggles to cope with her mother's death, a son who wished he knew his dad better, a Christian who's belief in his god has run aground, a voice for a 12-year old scienfic boy genius and a 12-year old girl whose love is behind a coldwall of hormonic change and anxiety...

and....

a voice for the universe, unified, untainted, understanding.

A voice for universal love.

a voice... of my own...

But...

if I can't even get all that across one stkining epic story that I want so badly, then I might as well not write at all.

And not even this post or the countless advices of fellow writers can EVER fix my god-shaped hole.

I have to do that, but right now, maybe forever, my drive and will to srtive and set and actually acheive goals is sleeping in it's grave...


When it will wake up I don't not know.
























And I bet when people read this, an angry mob will form and force me of IDOJ for good... JK :lol:

I just... suck so hardcore. :unsure:

And this whole rant is going on deaf ears - NO ONE'S GONNA READ IT!! :mad:

I think.

[SweeneyxxTodd]

Pedro.

No need for emo ranting.

This is your first fanfic, right? There's no way it's going to be the way you dream it will. You just need to practice writing. Keep going forward and working hard. You'll get there eventually.

You should have seen my first fanfic. It was so awful it nearly makes my eyes bleed now. I'm glad it got permanently deleted.

Everyone starts out low. Just keep working and you'll get there, trust me.

[RocksmySocks]

Pedro...I think you should take a closer look at the rant you just wrote.

Not for the content...but for the beauty and skill with which you phrased all your emotions.

You ARE a writer. You just proved it yet again with that deep and eloquent post! Don't try to tell me that you can't write. You just wrote something amazing, without even putting those "years of thought" behind it.

And your fanfic is honestly very good. It is not perfect. There are improvements to be made. But you have shown time and time again that your dedication can overcome those sort of setbacks. You recognize that there is no easy road to being a successful author, and you see what steps you would need to make to become one. Follow your heart, and you'll get there someday. It will take work, effort, and time. But it will mean all the more for it when you finally achieve your goals.

I often wish I could take a magic pill and become a fantastic writer. But I've realized that there is not just one way to be a good author. A pill would boost you up to write as well as "so and so" does. However, then you would just be another "so and so". You wouldn't be YOU. To write as well as any author you admire is NOT the right goal to set yourself. You need to write well as YOURSELF. With your own voice! Because it is the unique voice of an author that brings them success, not just how they compare to other authors. I've learned this. I've learned that in order to succeed, I need to find MY voice. Find my own style. And then work that up to a level people really enjoy not just because it is great writing, but because it is MY writing.


So just keep working at it. You're improving every day. You're already finding your voice. Now you just have to work out the details...and that is what practice is for.

I know you can do it, Pedro. I can see that in you. You'll make a difference, because you really really WANT to.


*hug*

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

They're right, Pedro. There's no need for an emo rant! I'll keep reading your fic, though it's your first, and, so far, it's turning out great!!! Don't quit NOW! Just think of all the disappointed readers there'd be if you quit! Your fic ROCKS, Pedro, and it deserves to be continued until it is finished! Now, turn that frown upside down :) and keep going with it! I know you can DO it!!!!! *hugs*

[J/C AVA]

You just need to practice writing. Keep going forward and working hard. You'll get there eventually.

It will take work, effort, and time.

Now you just have to work out the details...and that is what practice is for.

Typical answers that everyone tells me that I've heard countless times. <_< I'M NOT A DETAILED PERSON!!! Math and details depresses me.

But...

I often wish I could take a magic pill and become a fantastic writer. But I've realized that there is not just one way to be a good author. A pill would boost you up to write as well as "so and so" does. However, then you would just be another "so and so". You wouldn't be YOU.

THIS... is VERY profound. :o :D

To write as well as any author you admire is NOT the right goal to set yourself.

Because it is the unique voice of an author that brings them success, not just how they compare to other authors.

Man...

I'm so pretensious. I've been far too busy trying to compare myself with Mara and trying to make L,L&D to be like TOSOT and more so trying to compete with her and it that I guess.. I lost track. :unsure:

And as a confession to her and everyone else.. I'm insanly jelious, even emnitic, of her writing.

I know I should be more inspired to work harder by her and her writing but.. for me.. the opposite is happening. It's putting my writing to shame.

I'm sorry if I'm being such a pain in the neck. It's just that I can't take work. For anything. And if I can't accept, and more importantly DO IT, that harsh fact, then I'm standing in this emotional static spot for the rest of my life.

Venting, venting, venting... is that all I'm gonna be doing for the rest of my life?

Anyway, sorry for the pointless rants. I've been doing that ALOT this past week.

But I also feel so warm towards your priceless advice Katie. I always feel content when I recieve such warm advice.

I'm just so sorry, to you and Mara, that I always have to waste it sulking over my mediocreness instead of actually working to improve.

I'm taking everything way too seriously. -_-

Sorry guys for my emoness.

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

It's ok, Pedro! You can always count on us! *hugs*

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

For those of you that don't know, I started a fic called Unforgettable Summer and More, under its own topic. I'm already up to my 12th chapter, so feel free to read it from the beginning, if you have the time, that is, k? ;)

[J/C AVA]

You know what Katie? YOU'RE RIGHT!!!

For some strange reason, even though it's so late in the night now, I feel.. happy! :D

I don't feel so bitter anymore now about wanting to compare myself to Mara or for Life, Love and Death to be the next "TOSOT".

I don't need to try so hard to be regonized.

I'll BE recognized on my own terms, NOT by me needlessly comparing myself to another author.

It's not about trying to be like Mara or trying to be like Katie just to selfishly have content.

It's about the joy of writing and creativity! And I'm sure Mara understands this pretty well.

All I have to do is.. be myself!!!! :lol:

I think that growing on my own pace in my own specal way is MUCH better than comparing myself with Mara.

I dunno. It's like suddenly I feel liberated or something! It feels great! :D

I DON'T CARE anymore how much or how long I have to put to make this story unique, all I care about is that it's unique and is spoken through MY voice, NOT Mara or Katie, etc.

And that it inspires people.

Guys, I think I'm ready to continue Life, Love and Death again!



^_^

[Mara=^.^=]

Rock on Pedro! :rock:

I always feel incredibly untalented after reading an exceptionally good book/story/whatev. I have to remind myself that my viewpoint is unique, and just because I think it's boring doesn't mean other people won't find it refreshing.

Here's to our unique talents!
**raises toast**
**Everyone eats the toast...with jam**


~*Mara*~ = ^.^ =

[J/C AVA]

I have to remind myself that my viewpoint is unique, and just because I think it's boring doesn't mean other people won't find it refreshing.

Which is what I have to start thinking about way more from now on. -_-

But it's so true. ^_^

Here's to our unique talents!
**raises toast**
**Everyone eats the toast...with jam**

:blink: Now we're eating breakfast at night? AWESOME! :dance:

[JimmyxxCindy4EVER]

For those of you that don't know, I started a fic called Unforgettable Summer and More, under its own topic. I'm already up to my 12th chapter, so feel free to read it from the beginning, if you have the time, that is, k? ;)

Okay, guys, did y'all just IGNORE this??? :P

[J/C AVA]

I didn't. ^_^