I'm feeling rather...
moved, inspired even.
Comet is definitely NOT the same story as it was just 2/3 years ago. It's definitely come a very long way and still has a long ways to go. Heck I haven't even written Phase 2 yet and just the ideas coming from this is just.. I can't even describe it.
Stories are about the human experience, the good side and the bad, the triumph and the tragedy, the life and the passing of all people and things, and the authors are the overseers of that. I find myself no different.
But with this story, at least for the very first time for me, it's just become so much more than just
something to amuze myself with. It's become this epic, emotional, yearning story that, with the music, has really made this story span the stars and into the struggles, tragedies and immense emotional obstacles that not only we as IDOJers at our "coming of age" are facing - adulthood - but every coming of age kid out there - from the girl wishing for the unity of her family, to the lover yearning to see her one true love, etc - metaphorically speaking of course.
I think the more I think about it, the more it's probably about my reaction of reading, seeing people, kids of my age go through - dysfunctional familes, drunken friends, lovers yearning to see each other, seeing a loved one - person or animal - pass away, etc. It's a time where the horrors of the world finally get to us and we're forced to confront it head on and overcome.
And yet, despite these dense, morbid subjects, there juxtaposes this spiritual "high", this sense of elevation from the darkness of this world and flying high into the next - whichever it may be - where there are no earthly limitations, no sorrow or pain. It has this sense of "The entire existence of evil in the universe is soul destroying, but
we will make it and we can do it. We can aillivate ourselves out of ourselves to see the universe from above and find that true love prevails against ANYTHING that evil might throw at us.
Kinda hard to see this coming from a guy whose unofficially gained a "negative" reputation for being.. well.. er.. negative.

But I'm genuinely not always a negative person. Sometimes I can have optimistic yet crazy ideas such as these.
I dunno. Must be the "Bono" in me who thinks he can save the world from evil and I'm not even out of college yet.

Even more funny, all this is gonna happen to the very characters that this forum and we as fans have come to know and love: Jimmy, Cindy, Sheen, Libby and Carl. A universal encompassing idea such as aformed mentioned with "goofy" characters such as these almost seems rather paradoxical but when I look at the plot and how this is gonna go down, I just can't help but feel this feeling - I can't even describe. Heck this is even my first EVER JN fic in general (besides Crouching Jimmy, Hidden Cindy) and yet this idea has come out. Normal writers don't get epic ideas on their first stories! What IS this madness?!?

Reguardless of how this fic will change over the course of me making it, I can safely say that, guys, you WILL cry reading it.

Cause in the end,
Comet is not techecally "my" story, but it's YOUR story. It's a story for not only IDOJ but for any person coming of age in this insane world. It's here to offer those to escape their problems and find shealter from the cold, cruel world. Really, this fic is all about being sympathetic and sensitive to personal issues yet in a metaphorical way.
And gosh darn it, no matter HOW LONG or HARD it takes, I'm gonna finish writting this story! And I'm gonna HAVE FUN WHILE DOING IT!!!